Oh, I wish I could convince myself to take my bp more often, the fear just takes over me though, and I know it's a ridiculous fear, it's not like the bp machine is actually going to hurt me, it's just the worry about getting an awful reading, which has happened many times.
I get SO anxious about going to the doctor, basically this is how my process goes... something is wrong (or seemingly wrong) I get way too frightened to go to the doctor, I over think my problem for weeks until it gets to a "life or death" situation (in my head) I tell myself that going to the doctor is better than dying, I go to the doctor, everything's almost always fine.
I'm having the same problem with my wisdom teeth and going to the dentist right now, I need them removed and I'm finally almost getting to that point where the annoyingness of the tooth and stress about thinking of the dentist is greater than my fear of getting them pulled, I'm not quite there yet, but I hope to be soon. I just keep getting these anxious thoughts and thinking about the worst parts like if I'm going to have to get put under, if that's the case I need my BP taken... well I've read that in some cases they don't put you under if your bp is too high, oh well mine's definitely going to be through the roof. I'm also slightly scared of getting put under. If I don't get put under I'm going to have to sit there consciously trying not to have a panic attack while a man is cutting into my gums and pulling my embedded teeth out. In my mind it's just the worst thing that could possibly happen right now, but in reality I know it will likely not be that long of a process and although it will be uncomfortable I will feel much better after it's done, and after I'm healed.
I have no idea how I'm going to go through pregnancy or a more serious surgery when and if either of those things ever happen :/