I've been really struggling with derealization lately. It's the only real symptom I have but it won't go away! I am also not so sure that derealization is what I'm feeling because I have some symptoms that I haven't read about in other's experiences. Some things I have noticed:
- I have a preconceived notion about how I should feel in certain places or situations. For example, I'm currently looking to buy a house within the next year, so I start thinking/worrying, "What if I get so derealizdd in this house that I never feel comfortable or it never feels like home?" And I am extremely picky about the location of houses. If it's somewhere I've never been or that isn't familiar (even within my own town), I don't want to live there. I think I just fear uncomfortable feelings and the new environment.
- My surroundings, for example the house I've grown up in my whole life, my university, etc. feel foreign. Sometimes it feels so new, like it's a new city that I've never been to or something.
- I have some existential anxiety that comes with these feelings. I wonder about the future so much! I worry about whether I'll be able to finish school/have enough motivation, whether I'll be able to handle all the life changes coming my way (marriage, moving, finding a full time job, etc.). Anxiety tricks me into thinking I can't handle these things but I know rationally they're all going to be exciting and not as scary as they seem.
- I also monitor my moods and feelings all the time. I question myself and ask "Is this an appropriate reaction/mood for the current situation?" It usually is but it's overshadowed by my anxiety and questioning! It's a vicious cycle.
Does anyone have these same feelings or symptoms? I know I just need to stay in the moment, but I'm not really sure how. I've also been told to just ignore it and go about my day- which I've been doing, but it still lingers! I'm not sure what to do and I just want to stop overthinking & live in the moment like I used to.