I've been lurking this forums for quite some time now, but till now I got the courage to post.
Well, I suffer from severe (and paralyzing) hypochondriasis. It started in July of last year, and since then I've had 5 attacks of it. I suffer, my family suffers and it seems like I go from doctor to doctor and still they are recurrent.
The first attack I was convinced that I was going to die of heart disease, it lasted six weeks. Since then, all my hypochondria has been limited to an extreme fear of Cancer, of getting it, of having a slow, painful death, of knowing when and how one is going to die. After that first attack (fear of heart disease) I do not care at all about heart disease or other types of disease, it's all about cancer.
The Second and Third attacks (they overlapped, FUN!!! right!!!) were about metastatic terminal cancer and melanoma respectively (when in fact I only had a mild discomfort in the lower back and some moles that I've always had, but I could see and feel them grow by the minute). Those attacks lasted six weeks also, and took me to the dermatologist and several doctors, and several tests.
The Fourth attack, which started during Christmas and the New Year's holiday, which means that they were completely ruined, was about Colon Cancer. It lasted 8 weeks, and was only stopped by having a Colonoscopy performed on me (needless to say, it turned out I had only a spastic colon, they didn't even find out a Polyp, or Ulcer, nothing).
Currrently I'm in my Fifth attack, which started two weeks ago. Last week it was Easter Week (in my country we have the whole week as a break) and it was completely ruined for me. I'm kinda of embarrassed to say it, but this attack is a fear that I have either Testicular and/or Penile Cancer. I have been feeling my testicles all this time and I can't find any lump or anything, so I kinda been putting the Testicular fear to rest. BUT I do have a rather prominent vein (or it may be a snake-like lump) on my penile shaft. I'm extremely fearful it maybe a tumor or something. I don't want to involve my family in this, because: 1) they have suffered thru my past attacks too much and 2) because of the body parts it's involved, I'm embarrassed. I may have this vein or thing since for ever, but for the life of me I can't remember and I've become obsessed with it.
I feel like I'm going mad, and if it continues like this, I don't think I'll ever enjoy life again.
PS 1: Please excuse my English, it's not my first language. I'm from Guatemala and live in that country.
PS 2: Dr. Google has been basically the first culprit of my attacks, but on top of my hypochondria, I also suffer from extreme phobia to the doctor. I even had a panic attack (where I felt that I was having a heart attack) at the doctor's office during my first attacks. After going to several doctors, it has gotten better, but I still fear it.
PS 3: Unfortunately I have been known of some 3 or 4 people who have died of cancer recently, and have been witness to the devastating effects of that disease on family and friends so I do know that Cancer is real and happen to anyone.
PS 4: I forgot. I'm a 31 year old male. I'm not sexually active (the fear of venereal disease is too big for me), and till July of last year in excellent health.