I've had hypochondria for so long now. Although I do have several REAL diagnosed health issues. (I hate even thinking about my health). Anyway, after much prayer and searching, I finally got a urologist appointment for this friday with one of the most high-tech urology centers in California. That's good.
What I fear is that, like has happened before, that it won't be enough, that I will not be satisfied with results, that I will keep needing more and more parts of my body looked at.
I really don't want to go down this road because it opens up so many problems right now, and in my future. But I also don't want to say "F it", like I have done in the past, and simply just swept everything under the rug in order that I could try to live a normal life.
There has to be a balance between taking good care of the only body we have on this earth, and being so overly-obsessed that I will actually never be satisfied. Because, I will die someday, and that's the truth.
My search, as I evaluate myself, has been more to return to a childlike, worry-free state where I don't have any problems or pains; basically Heaven.
I know that can't be reached here on earth, and we shouldn't be worried or focused on those types of things.
Does anyone have any tips that have helped them? Time and time again, I was certain that I had overcome my health-anxiety, but it turns out that every single time something goes wrong, it ALL comes back again. I need to get to a point where I can be relaxed. I suspect I may even have autoimmune problems because I've been worrying for 22 years straight.
I know this is alot, but I appreciate help and support. Thank you.