Hi clohessy9. I have a problem similar to you. I have worked long and hard to fight my anxiety but I still use alcohol to self-medicate especially when I am at home. In fact 90% of the time, I drink in excess when I am at home. I think its because I spend all day fighting through challenge after challenge (related to my issues and how I deal with them) and then when I get home, I am mentally exhausted and I head for the wine. Some days are much better than others. Yesterday my husband went to a baseball game at night and I started freaking out when he was leaving. I was giving him all sorts of hugs and asking that he wouldn't leave jokingly (which is hysterical since I am a bit of an ice queen) but then I realized it was because I was scared to be alone. I tried distracting myself my vacuuming the house and playing with the dog but next thing I know, out pops the wine.
I would love to know the answer to this. If I quit drinking, how do I deal with my anxiety? My psychiatrist says I should take my clonazepam instead and I did try that for one month but nothing changed - I didn't feel any different. I still had anxiety every night and still was "medicating" even though it wasn't "self medicating".
Tell me more about your situation?? This is a major thing for me, I want to know your stories too.