currently trying to stave off a panic attack after something very scary just happened.
i had a good day today, anxiety was very low as i was kept busy by painting my room with my mom. today is probably the least anxious i've felt in quite a while. well, of course my good streak has to be broken because i was just sitting here in bed working on something, not even worrying about my health at all, when suddenly i got this terrible head rush feeling that lasted a few seconds. it felt as though i was lifting out of my body and my head didn't belong to me anymore. the room wasn't spinning and it didn't feel like lightheadedness, it felt as though there was a literal dizzy "rush" through only my head. the only thing i can compare it to is something like vertigo. and then it was gone, although now i feel dizzy from it and quite ill and very very nervous that it's a sign of something horrible. this is especially depressing considering that i felt like i was having a pretty good few days not obsessing over my health and suddenly this is thrown at me out of nowhere.
it didn't affect my vision so i didn't have any blurriness or double vision, it just literally felt like my brain was floating, like a big "whoosh" sensation through my head. i wish i could describe it better but i can't.
considering that having a brain tumor is my biggest fear in the universe right now, this sudden head rush i just got really isn't helping. i've had this sensation a few times in the past and it's never any less terrifying when it hits.
please, can someone pop in with a comment that they've experienced this kind of head rush before? i'm not going to be able to sleep now worrying about this and i'm extremely upset so if anyone could help that would be highly appreciated.