There is absolutely nothing wrong with "waffling" on this site . . .sometimes the very act of waffling is therapeutic . . . I cannot speak to your meds because I am not familiar with them but I can tell you about the aches and pains because I also have a similar issue . . . I am not sure where it originates for me . . .I assume that when I am in anxious riddled episodes, my muscles tense up and then for some reason that becomes the feeling that I get to be most comfortable with because I know what it means . .. when I don't have the tension, then I wonder what is going on . . .. Personally, I have come to recognize that my best action for aches and pains is to get up and move even if I don't want to . . . .I have a mega list of stuff that needs to be done . . .stupid stuff like clean out a drawer, or wash out the sink . . . .anything to get me moving on the one hand and distract me and give me a sense of accomplishment on the other hand . . .won't lie to you . . .doesn't always work but it seems to be able to take the edge off . . . I also soak in Epsom salts in hot water . . .for some reason, it does marvels . . . I do take regular strength Tylenol when everything else just fails . . .
Now, the other experience that I will share is that I also felt that everything that I did would kill me . . . for a long time, I did nothing . . . .I don't know how I came to this realization but I decided that I could either let life pass me by or I could live it . . .I started out walking . . .just 5 minutes one way and 5 minutes back . . .talk about provoking anxiety . . . I kept doing that until I felt like I could add 5 more minutes . . .it was about when I was doing 20 minutes one way and 20 minutes back that I realized that the anxiety was not with me . . . .I was actually enjoying myself . . . I really do not know why . . .I do practice mindfulness and I do try (and I am not always successful) to eat well --- I don't do junk food ever, no fried food, no red meat (but that's because I cannot digest it . . .nothing to do with anxiety), no alcohol (again, only because wine gives me a migraine, beer runs through me, and hard liquour, well, it just makes me stupid), etc. I try (and again it doesn't always work out because I do slip off the wagon) to have a standard sleep pattern . . . for me, it is in taking the small steps because I do believe it is a process and not an event . . .
As far as the news, well, I think we only hear about the "bad" stuff because it sells . . .I don't listen a lot to the news especially medical programs and I avoid Googling my symptoms . . . . again, I think that I am at that stage of acceptance and I do the best I can each day . .. . I have also followed a self-CBT routine and found it very helpful . ..
So, come back here anytime to waffle . . .we'll do our best for you . . .take care, kc