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Offline SE4000

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I had a low fever for about a week with some weird nausea. The fever went away and the nausea didn't. I went to see a doctor and he gave me an antibiotic for now, said that we would get to the bottom of this and to see him again in a week.

It's been about a week and I'm going to go back on monday or tuesday, or maybe after my antibiotics are done. The thing that terrifies me is that these feelings in my belly haven't gone away. My symptoms are this:

-Primarily: Feeling of heavy object or something in my belly, just under my sternum or right behind the bottom of it
-Nausea right after eating, seems to be worse after waking up. Feeling of gagging when talking
-Waking up earlier than usual. I used to get 8 to 9 hours of sleep, now I get 5
-Feeling like I'm not getting enough air. I've been taking long, deep breaths from time to time over the past few days. this is caused by the weird object/heavy feeling in my belly

I am a 24 year old man. I've looked up all the different abdominal cancers and they're all overwhelmingly diagnosed in elderly people (except maybe sarcomas). I have no other symptoms, other than a change in bowel habits (smaller stools) but that has lasted over two years and seems unrelated. The feeling of an object in my belly area has lasted maybe a week by now, 8 or 9 days max.

When I lay down on my side, it feels like the thing is weighed down and falls or sags with gravity a little bit. It seems to almost melt away completely at night, but it's still there when I wake up, and it has never fully disappeared. Sometimes it goes away more, sometimes less. I believe it always feels worse after eating or even drinking water. It feels as if it's pressing against my organs and that food/water is causing my stomach to press against it, making me nauseous.

This has me absolutely, 100% convinced that I have a tumor or cancer and I am completely terrified of going in for imaging or anything because I know I'm going to begin chemo and that I'll be given a year or two to live tops. I know I have to do it and I'm making the appointment on monday, but I'm absolutely debilitated. I can't concentrate, I can't work, I can't do anything. I have barely left my house since I started feeling nausea back around march 30 or so. The nature of that nausea has changed over time, it has changed from the right side of my belly to the middle top. My appetite has come and gone. last night I was tweaking so hard, I'm completely absolutely messed up. if I didn't feel this thing in my belly I would be completely normal, other than the bowel issues which seem to be mild.

I'm also getting a lot of anxiety symptoms like dry mouth, panicking, things like that. I don't know how much of my nausea is caused by anxiety and how much is real.

at this point I have convinced myself I allowed a cancer to grow unchecked and now I'm going to pay the price with my life. someone put my mind at ease. it's all I have left.
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Offline Allytiel90

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To me this reminds me of the H. pylori bacteria my bro had. It burrows into your stomach. Can cause bad symptoms. It's easily treated but needs a few tests to trace it down.
The overall thing I see from Your post is a lot of anxiety. A lot of the things you think you feel can be from you worrying so much about this. The waking earlier, the feeling of not getting enough air.... Stemming from your focusing on the one symptom you had. I had pain in my liver area for a month about half a year ago. Stabbing pain, a feeling of heaviness and fullness like something was there.... I got an ultrasound, nothing there! The pain left shortly after. What was it? No clue, but it obviously was harmless. My therapist told me there's those of us out there that are hyper aware of our bodies. Every twinge, every itch, every small ( or perceived large) pain. We may be some of those people!
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I had a friend who, in her 50's, was diagnosed with advanced stomach cancer.  Her main symptom was unbearable pain - so bad she could hardly stand up. 
hey (Northwestern Memorial Hospital in Chicago) removed 90% of her stomach.  That was 15 years ago.  Today, and for many years, she has a high level executive job and works full time making over 100K a year and feels just fine.
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I have always been under the impression that cancer lumps are painless a lot of the time, so that's why this symptom worries me so much. However my nausea tends to get better and worse throughout the day. The heaviness feeling sometimes seems to shrink a lot by the time I go to bed. I don't know how much of my symptoms are generated in my mind anymore. When I wake up I can barely eat anything without feeling sick, but by dinner I'm oftentimes fine. That nagging heavy feeling is still there, but I'm able to eat just fine. If it weren't for that heavy feeling ball thing in my abdomen, I'd not be so anxious. It's been there for at least a couple weeks, maybe less.

Logically, I'm certain I'm totally okay. But anxiety is not logical and I still tend to freak out.

EDIT: As far as feeling like I'm not getting enough air, that happens mostly after waking up. I feel very strange sometimes when I wake up, like I wasn't breathing enough. I usually start hyperventilating and that makes me feel somewhat better. This just started recently with whatever made me sick. Throughout the day I also feel like I have to take a deep breath, but I believe that's entirely anxiety.
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Sorry if double posting is not allowed, but I thought I'd give a small update.

I received my blood test results back. They said everything is fine, including liver enzymes, blood count, blood sugar, and a bunch of other things. They did find something slightly elevated in my pancreas. They want me to see a specialist as a precaution, but I was told he might say it's nothing. They're not too worried about it.

I did google it and did find pancreatic cancer, but because my symptoms are improving every day (a bit slowly, albeit) I'm not concerned about any tumors or cancer.

I haven't felt much worry or anxiety about it in days, considering it's getting better, my appetite is better, and I'm feeling better after coming off that strong antibiotic. It's hard to say this as a hypochondriac, but I'm thinking there isn't anything too wrong with me at this point.
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