Hey friends, 3 years ago I was on here ALL THE TIME. I had moved out to California from Massachusetts during that time.
Well, I ended up going back to Massachusetts after that. But, haha, now I'm living here in California going to college.
I've had my anxiety under control about 110% better until,
Yesterday; I had a flare up with some urinary issues (the same issues that started my ENTIRE SAGA of hypochondria and mental breakdown)
Went to an urgent care clinic today, the doctor believes it's a prostate flare up. No infection was present.
If any of you remember me or my history, you know that I was addicted to Xanax, diagnosed with dozens of medical issues and, have SEVERE PTSD, OCD and problems separating the present from the past.
As I'm sitting here, I'm getting strong frightful flashes which are confusing me and I'm unable to tell what year it is and where I am.
I am only ever comfortable in Massachusetts, as that's the reason I returned there in Winter 2011 in the first place, and stayed there until Nov. 2013.
I'm sitting here feeling like crying, but at the same time I feel emotionless. It's very weird.
I really need a friend, I really need comfort.