Welcome to the board, Sue.
struggling on and off with anxieties ever since i turned 19.
I am now 41 and wonder if i will ever lead an anxiety-free life.
I often question that, and sometimes that strikes anxiety up itself. You've pushed hard for a long time, and you're doing great. You only really know the bottom of the pit when you're, well... at the bottom of the pit. I don't think a person really knows what success is until they work up from the very the ground floor. And you can always look back and you know that within that timespan, there is events of happiness, and events of sadness, events of anxiety, and events of collectiveness. In my full-fledged honest opinion... If life were invented without some negative pressure, we wouldn't know what happiness is... We would all be neutral. Anxiety in a fuller extent than others can be a real slap in the face.. but it's also very rewarding to accomplish the feeling of being anxiety free. One shouldn't worry about the future of waking up every day without facing a single anxious state of mind as that isn't in the real of reality. Just moments by moments, making positive decisions and thinking before doing is probably the only key to that in my opinion.
You're a great person from what I've met so far in chat, I'm glad to see you on this board!
I am driving everybody crazy with it.
And that's fine. It's how you're wired. Things that are 100% out of our control, we shouldn't spend time worrying about solving. People constantly judge... you judge, I judge, Everybody judges. But I don't think that they are really that moved by it as much as you make yourself think they are. believe me, I worry the same thing too. but we all have our needs and we are entitled to it. After all, if anyone has a negative thing to say, It's all an opinion. And we all have one.
You're a good hearted individual, I can tell already. Because you're not wanting what's effecting you to effect others. It's thoughtful and caring. Don't get hurt over that, as we all do from time to time.