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Hi well I've been suffering from health anxiety quite badly since December (and on and off my whole life. I tend to have one bad bout of it every year). Since December I was obsessing about MS and also ovarian cancer. In feb I was having a routine scan for something very minor when they found a tumour on one of my kidneys! I'm told it's almost certainly cancer and I had the kidney out 2 weeks ago.SO although I wasn't actually worried about kidney cancer specifically (it's very rare for a woman my age to get it) I did worry about cancer. Obviously this diagnosis has been a massive shock and hard to deal with. I'm told it was caught early though. I've been amazingly lucky that it was picked up by chance so early in. It's very likely I'll be cured permanently. I just wanted to write about what it's like for a HA sufferer when you are faced with a serious illness. Obviously this is something I've been dreading my entire life and at times my HA has made my life a misery. Strangely enough the reality of having cancer isn't as I imagined as I've been pretty calm since diagnosis. I realise this is because I've been given such a prognosis and I would NOT be so calm if it had spread and I was given bad news. But after months of imagining all sorts of things i actually had a sense if relief that now we know what we're dealing with, we know how to treat it so let's stay calm and positive and just get on with it. I never felt "why me? Life's so unfair" like the doctor thought I would because I've been expecting something like this to happen for years!! I just find it interesting that the thought of serious illness freaked me out more than the reality (although like I say this is ONLY because I have such a good prognosis. I would not be brave if given a death sentence). So for everyone who's living in so much fear I want to say that if your worst nightmares came true (which they won't for the vast majority of you) you would cope and just get on with things. The worst thing is not knowing for sure, the uncertainty. Once you get bad news you deal with it. Human brings are very adaptable.