Mine feels hard and fixed to me, but so did the ones on my neck and those went away, so maybe that's just how my pissy lymph nodes feel. What makes me uneasy is that my doctor says this is a cyst, and I really think it's a node - this isn't the first time he's called what in hindsight what was an aggravated node (I had one on my neck for quite some time years ago, exactly the same as the ones that recently freaked me out) so I'm second-guessing everything.
For the record I do trust my doctor. Just...not right at this moment. I did say something like "so it's probably not a tumor?" and he said no, he didn't think so. He's familiar with my HA.
Right now I'm just making myself NOT TOUCH IT. But then I'm like what if it's growing? What if I die because I refuse to let myself touch it and it's cancer and it spreads? But refusing to touch them was how I managed to get past the fear of them last time. (But what if it's really bad this time?! Etc. Y'all know how it goes.)
One of the things I hate most about HA is not being able to tell a reasonable question or concern from something my mind is creating.