I'm so sorry you're in fear and experiencing this dreadful feeling.... I'm a big pragmatic and statistical person... Of course as stats go, even the smallest numbers can land on any of us. My fear is ALS which for my age is slim as slim can get... But it can happen.
Odds are one of myself, my sister, my mom or dad or kid will die of cancer... 22% it's so scary but the thing we can't change is fate and although I can preach it! I have trouble coping with the fact that something COULD BE. My father tells me that what will happen will happen and there's nothing you can do to change what will happen other than medicine and treatments and advancement in treatments.
The chances of any if us dying are 100% it's just a matter of when and how. None of us want to die young, and I have no problem with those that self loathe, it's a common natural phenomenon... There are only a few people that can control their fears, they are a rare and blessed breed because you actually ruin what days and life you have by anxiety and worry.
The chances of ovarian cancer (actually the 5th most deadly cancer to women but first gynecological deadly) at your age are under 5%.... Having said that, there is about a 35% chance of survival IF you do have it... With better chances on your side with your age and of course early detection.
The best advice I have is to stay regular on your check ups and screenings so if something is to show up, you will be ahead of the game and reduce the risk of spreading.
I'm here to help not scare so if some of the things I say scare you, then I apologize in advance....
22,000 cases will be diagnosed this year... 5% of that is 1,100 .... With a mortality rate of 65% but with your age and tenacity of being proactive I'd say that lowers it by 5%. The mean age of diagnosis is 63.
660 women under 35 will die of ovarian cancer this year. With about 165,000,000 women in the country, that puts your odds of dying , to my estimate at roughly 1 in 250,000.
Of course I'm decent at math but I'm not Isaac Newton ... But if those were my odds , I'd feel fairly confident in my chances... I mean I can't even win a drawing of 1 of 300 people at work ever... So think about how unlikely 1 in 250,000 would be if my numbers are even anywhere near close to accurate.
I'm wishing you strength and warmth in your time of anxiety and distress, I hope the best for you and will send you positive thoughts and energy. I hope this helped some.
Peace and warmth.