I am still wide awake so I'll give this a shot, in hopes it might help me relax and sleep.
I've had right-sided numbness for a week now, arm, leg and trunk. My doctor did not brush me off as I expected and ordered several blood tests (8 vials of blood!) and a CT scan of the brain. I'm waiting to hear about the blood tests and still need to schedule the CT. I'm agoraphobic and really, really, really don't want to undergo a CT. I'm hoping my problem is just a simple dietary deficiency like B12, so I'm actually scared that my blood tests will be normal.
I'm picturing lying on the scanner table and the technicians rushing in and saying, "We have to run another scan with contrast because we see something! (insert dramatic music)" or "You have to have an immdiate MRI because we see something! (more dramatic music)" or "The neurosurgeon is on his way to see you! (etc.)"
I'm afraid I have a brain tumor and will suffer horribly and then die prematurely and my wonderful son, who is 12 and homeschooled, will have to go back to school. I'm afraid I've had a stroke and the numbness and tingling is permanent and I will have lots more strokes and be disabled and a burden to my husband and son. I'm afraid I have progressive MS and will be disabled and a burden to my husband and son. I'm afraid they will never find out what is wrong and I will be twitchy and nervous about my health for the rest of my life.
Believe it or not, this was surprisingly helpful. Seeing it all in black and white makes it a little more manageable somehow.