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Offline AP151

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Can Not Continue In This State of mind
« on: April 10, 2014, 10:13:15 AM »
I'm losing control of my fears. They even bring me to tears at times. Each twitch/buzz in my left foot causes an adrenaline rush down my body because I get so afraid of what it may mean. I fear the dreaded 3 letter disease. I don't know how I can go on in this frame of mind. I feel like I'm losing it.

I don't know what to do, my parents won't let me see a neuro, my mom doesn't want me to take anti-depressants, I don't have a theraptist. Every time I manage to calm myself down it lasts all but an hour or two and then I fall back into the trap. I'm just so afraid of ***.
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Re: Can Not Continue In This State of mind
« Reply #1 on: April 10, 2014, 10:21:48 AM »
I am truly sorry.  I know how you feel; I seem to be caught in the same spiral.  I think that what we have is a form of OCD -- in other words, we feel anxious, but we can't shut the thought off -- we keep thinking about it, and it's truly exhausting.  I have a therapist that has helped me a lot.  If you can't see a therapist, can you at least talk to a general doctor?  The real issue is not the one you're worried about.  The real issue is the worry spiral.  You're in my thoughts - sending you warm wishes!
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Re: Can Not Continue In This State of mind
« Reply #2 on: April 10, 2014, 10:58:33 AM »
I went to see my Dr. for a physical to see if he could find anything wrong, but he had an emergency with another patient so he had a freaking medical student examine me. I was so mad.
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Re: Can Not Continue In This State of mind
« Reply #3 on: April 10, 2014, 11:01:54 AM »
ALS is actually pretty rare and your symptoms are not indicative of it anyway.
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Re: Can Not Continue In This State of mind
« Reply #4 on: April 10, 2014, 01:41:49 PM »
Too bad your parents don't recognize you need therapy.

On the upside, ALS fear won't last more than 6 months since it is very progressive disease and when you see that you are fine then, you will let it go and maybe switch to smth else :P
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Re: Can Not Continue In This State of mind
« Reply #5 on: April 10, 2014, 02:57:05 PM »
I agree with you hypo his parents need to address this asap
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Re: Can Not Continue In This State of mind
« Reply #6 on: April 10, 2014, 03:10:12 PM »
I was thinking a bit more about this... does is help to know that it is normal for the body to have zips and zaps and odd aches and pains?  That's normal stuff!  What might be helpful is to do this:  think of the HA monster like a car, rushing wildly down a street.  It's not stopping for the normal stoplights.  You need to take action to get it to stop (ie, chop a tree down across the road!)  How do you do that?  By distraction!  Find something that you love - maybe it's a book, or music, or a run in the park.  Maybe it's doing crossword puzzles or jumping jacks.  Just keep thinking, "I'm stopping that stupid HA!"  I know it's hard -- I even keep my ipod near the bed at night to listen to music in case I wake up.  It helps derail the thoughts.  Hang in there - you are okay!!!!
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Re: Can Not Continue In This State of mind
« Reply #7 on: April 10, 2014, 06:02:02 PM »
I'm so sorry.  My parents wouldn't let me get treated for HA either.  It wasn't until I was well into adulthood before I got enough courage to seek treatment for myself.

Did you tell the medical student that you suffer from HA?
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Re: Can Not Continue In This State of mind
« Reply #8 on: April 10, 2014, 06:03:57 PM »
Yes, I told him. We made jokes about it but it's only funny in that office. When I leave and have nobody in the room to tell me my fears are misguided than it becomes this uncontrollable chain of fear and physical manifestations.
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Re: Can Not Continue In This State of mind
« Reply #9 on: April 10, 2014, 06:49:22 PM »
I know exactly what you mean.  You need to break the circle.  Have you tried any thing to stop the thoughts in their tracks?  It's very, very hard to master at first.

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