I'm getting frustrated.
I have been doing great up until last Sunday when I came down with a stomach virus. Now I have emetephobia so getting sick is always a big deal. Anyway, thankfully it was just a mild case but still had the diarrhea and I did vomit once. Anyways, I started feeling better by Monday and went back to work on Tuesday, although I was late to work because I woke up with a horrible horrible anxiety attack! I couldn't eat, could barely breathe, was shaking, etc. I took a klonopin (.25mg) and it helped me get to work. Yesterday, same thing! Woke up with a really bad attack again. Took another klonopin and it calmed down. I had some green tea (hot) at work and within an hour I was in the bathroom with diarrhea again, which sparked me to panic again thinking I was getting sick again. I managed to get through the rest of my day and was fine for the most part.
It's now Thursday and I woke up in a complete panic AGAIN. Another klonopin and I'm starting to calm down and attempt to eat some breakfast.
I went to my Dr on Monday and they want me to increase my Zoloft from 50mgs to 100mgs, and to take the Klonopin daily in the mean time. Well, I'll be honest, I'm terrified to increase my Zoloft but I really don't know why?
As I type this my hands are shaking, my stomach is in knots and I feel like crying.
I get hit with these types of episodes maybe 3x a year - and they last for what seems like forever, usually a week or so.
I'm just venting, really. I am doing what I'm "supposed" to do - I go for walks, I do deep breathing, I do distraction methods.
I just feel like I will never get better.