Today I created my "hypochondria mantra" sheet. This is a mantra I created back in '09 when I had an HIV thing that got pretty bad. I write the statement 'Hypochondria is the insistence upon illness despite facts to the contrary. This is not real."
Then I write three bullet points under this statement that summarize "the situation" in factual terms. They have to be short and there can only be three. Whenever my mind tries to go to the fear, I make myself pull out this piece of paper and read it, preferably out loud. I may do this up to several times a minute. But I keep doing it until eventually, the words start sinking in.
It is a very tough process but before, it helped me build that little bit of comfort that could push me further and further from the crazy. I hope it works this time. I've come up with so many "what ifs" that I've worked myself into a mental maze.