I try to keep my anxiety to myself because I don't have much of a support system here. No one in my family other then me has anxiety and its something they don't understand so I just get brushed off a lot, told to smarted up, grow up, deal with it, get it together ETC..
I have recently over the last 6 months or so had a lump in my throat feeling. This feeling is constant from the moment I wake until i go to bed but changes in severity through out the day seemingly worse at night. I have gone for a barium swallow, they didn't report any findings however during it I had to get up and move around because my stomach wasn't emptying fast enough so you would think they would have said something about delayed gastric emptying.
I also have had an endoscopy which reported that my throat was red, other then that they did not report any findings and this was about 3 months ago.
I had just done a thyroid blood test/scan because its in that area and the results should be in. I called my doctor to make an appointment to review them, but the receptionist said if there was any concern they would have called me which they did not.
I'm now supposed to see en ENT in a few days as well as an allergist at the end of the month.
This is causing me great anxiety. Im uncomfortable almost all the time and its even beginning to affect my sleeping. I told my therapist about it and he wants to put me on another med. I'm currently on klonopin only because of my adverse reactions with ssris in the past so I don't know what I'm to do. He also wants me to take these tests first to make sure its not something more sinister before treating the anxiety so even more to think of.
This feeling is driving me mad, I try not to cry in front of anyone but i got caught crying today and my fiance got mad at me and told me he wants me to get a new family doctor by the end of today or else and followed it with I don't know if I can love you anymore. I'm absolutely heartbroken. I feel like Im going to die from this throat thing, and the one person i thought would be there for me says that to me... really devistated.