Thanks, both of you! I feel like lately, I just really need some kind of HOPE that things will get better. It's so hard, you know?! I feel like I'm going crazy.. lol. And I'm so afraid to tell people about my fears because they don't really understand it (my mom thinks I'm making it up, I don't want to scare my boyfriend away, my friends think it's just regular anxiety so they're like "oh just calm down you're fine") and keeping it bottled up doesn't help either. But coming on here makes me feel bad because I can't open other people's posts and reply to them without freaking out that I have whatever they're afraid of too... OMG. I can't wait until I can see the therapist next week... Knowing nothing will be "immediate help" is so disappointing though. I wish there was a pill.. Or a cream.. You know... LOL. Why can't mental nuisances be as "easy" to take care of as physical nuisances (like rashes)?!! Plus if it's in MY
head, why can't I
control it?!! Grrrrr!!
I wish there was more for me to say cause you sound like you have a harder time than I do. Have you tried self help books?
I haven't... I wouldn't even know what kinds of books to get. I'm not really huge on reading anyways though, I'd probably skim through it and get bored because it's not giving me "immediate help." I feel like I do that a lot... lol. Which I know is awful, but with work, school, and just other life stuff, I usually feel like I don't have time or patience for a book. :/ I can't even get myself to read the required text for my homework... LOL! Do you have any book suggestions, though? Maybe if it's something that'll actually help me, it'll interest me a little more than homework things that aren't at all relevant to me....