I got diagnosed with ADHD as a child and have never been on medication for it. About 10 months ago I started having clinical level anxiety attacks which include episodes bad spaciness, stomach problems, and other physical symptoms that make it difficult for me to concentrate at work. I work as a software developer and I have a set of non medical coping skills that I use to deal with ADHD. My problem right now is that all my coping mechanisms for ADHD require that I have a desire to do something and lately I really don't. I read that ADHD doesn't get worse over time so theoretically if I didn't need medication before I shouldn't need it now but I feel as if my anxiety is making my ADHD worse and I don't know whether that means I should rethink the decision of not going on ADHD medication. If my anxiety was under control I would be able to function but I'm afraid at this point that that will never happen and I don't know what I'm supposed to do in the mean time since I will have anxiety attacks that last for hours where just putting together a coherent thought is difficult. At work I'm paid for my intellect and I'm afraid that I have lost my edge as a software developer. I'm afraid that every moment I spend having a panic attack is a moment where I would be getting productive work done if I weren't feeling so god damn anxious and depressed. And I'm afraid my anti-anxiety medication has stopped working and that's why I have felt like **** lately.