Hi guys.. Its been months since being on here. The other day I had a freak out post which I now feel stupid about anyways.....
I've always been a chronic worrier and had bad anxiety. General Anxiety and health.
Ive been worried about going deaf, blind, brain tumor, skin cancer, breast cancer, diabetes and the worse fear MS.. Boy is it a popular one.
The MS fear started last year when I was looking up reasons people go blind.. MS popped up.. I then became stuck on that disease.
Frequent urination. especially at night.
Headaches here and there.
Tingling all over body. more in feet and hands. but it pops up all over.
If I touch my skin it gets a weird sensation. like tingly/vibrations.
left arm feels weaker than right arm.
Eye floaters, after images, visual snow in dark
I've been to eye doctors and my eyes are healthy. but I dont have health insurance so I cant afford to get tests done to rule things out.
My family thinks Im crazy. My husband wont give my HA the time of day. I literally have no one I can talk to to about this. I feel so alone
and lost. For months I was doing ok with thoughts still in my head, but I was so busy with life that I didnt have time to worry..
Ive been under tons of stress, so I know it doesnt help. I'm just so scared. Also Im a 21 yr old caucasian female and I live in northern climate which fits
the MS description however I lived in the south up until 18. I try to be rational but its so hard. I didnt have any symptoms before reading about any of the diseases and that should be everything..... like when busy I dont notice my symptoms, but I notice my feet alot because they burn sometimes after standing for long periods of time but I just blame it on that.
I read that after images is a sign of brain tumor.. but MS is my worse fear. I got fixated on the disease again 4 days ago when I had some constipation.
I started googling and boom its back full force. I just cant live like this.
I'm sorry I keep posting about MS and Im sorry we all have to go through this. I will keep everyone in my prayers.