For the past several weeks I have been going through a basically never ending health anxiety attack, certain I have terminal cancer or that I am destined to develop terminal cancer. I've had a pain in both sides of my waist--but stronger on my right side. Was certain I had liver cancer or something like that. Doctor told me it was probably muscular and to lay off working out for a bit. I did and it has gotten somewhat better, but whenever I run it's quite intense, not a problem I ever used to have. Now I also have throat pain, back pain, in addition to the side pain, and I'm completely terrified I have some sort of cancer that has metastasized all over my body.
I also read a study this morning that vegetarianism is linked to increase cancer rates. I've been a vegetarian since I was 16 (I am 30) and just have this terror that this is just one more thing that shows I have or will get terminal cancer. I cannot get out of this mindset and feel certain that I will not live out the year. of course it isn't rational--but it's just how my mind is working right now.
One thing that has triggered this episode, I think, is that a guy I grew up with is dying of cancer--he has only a couple days or weeks to live. I went to visit him last weekend and while I am glad I did that, it did reignite my cancer fears. I wish I could just get out of this and live and enjoy my life!