I feel a lot more relaxed now that I addressed the issue with my doctor, he said there is ton of information out there in the internet that isn't meant for people like us that really are not trained. He said that we should leave the doctor work to them who have been trained for many years. He said how would you like it if I went to your work and started telling you what to do without me having any training.
Don't get me wrong I still have that thought linger in my mind, but starting now I'm trying to go about my life as normal. I've decided that I will go back to the gym after work, like I've always done, and that the least time I spend at home in my room being worried and let my mind go nuts, I'm going to do the best I can to keep my mind off of it. I'm trying my best to not go to the internet trying to look for reassurance, it's just making the condition worse. I'm also seeing my therapist again next Tuesday and hopefully with the combination of the ENT visit and my therapist I can finally put this to rest.
We need to try to enjoy our life's, I know it's not easy and I am probably the last person to say this but how long, how many times have we thought we were dying just to realize that it was all in our heads? Every time this happens I regret it so much because I just threw away days, weeks, and sometimes months out of my life when I can be enjoying myself, family, and friends. I know this is something that I have to live with for the rest of my life but if we try to find ways to help ourselves we can keep the outbreaks to a minimum. I know It takes a lot of effort to get better, but I know we all can. Thank you all for taking the time to read my post and I will update once I get the ok from my insurance to see the ENT specialist.