Hey guys, i just wanted to write a little rant about HA if you guys don't mind...Im just so sick and tired of spending each second, minute, hour, day googling symptoms and freaking about what disease or cancer i have.. I know 99.9% of you here will relate to this. I am pretty new to anxiety. Had my first panic attack in september and was a hypochondriac ever since then. In just 4 months, i spent $3000 on just medical bills because I kept thinking I had a heart disease, which luckily my heart is fine. Now I am worrying about sinus cancer because I have sinus infection, brain tumor, MS, parkinson's, etc. I know its impossible to have all these at the same time but i always put myself in that 1% of possibility. I was born with a heart defect and I read online that 1 out of 500 babies are born with the defect. I always ask myself why I had to be that 1 baby. This is why even though I read that diseases and cancers are rare. I always think I fall into that rare category. I know this might sound bad but sometimes, I would tell myself that if i did die of some sort of disease, then I wont have to deal with this health anxiety anymore. But at the same time, Im always scared of dying. Im only 23 years old and I still have a long way to go. Im scared to go to the health center at school because I go there so frequently that all the drs and nurses know my name and its embarrassing. I cant even concentrate in class because I would just wonder what kind of illness I have and research about it rather than paying attention in class. I cant even sleep because I'll think about it all night and wake myself with a panic attack. It just sickens me and I just want it to go away. My counselor tells me to stop googling but its easier said than done. I know this post isn't considered a health issue but I just wanted to post this because I dont have anyone else to talk to and I just want everything to be normal again. Thanks guys for reading and hope we can beat health anxiety together!