Hey everyone my name is Josh and I'm 28. I've had issues for most of my adult life. I tend to over think everything and it had made my life very difficult. Most of my time (outside of working at my crappy job) is spent distracting myself with gaming and chatting online. I've never had a girlfriend and I had to drop out of university because my anxiety war so bad I thought I eat going to pass out right on class.
I have very few friends in real life but online, I am the part opposite. I am basically a social butterfly. I have tried about 3 different anxiety meds but none of them worked long term. I notice I go through cycles that follow this pattern.
1. Long period of stagnant, blissful distraction.
2. Become uncharacteristically optimistic for a week or so.
3. Overwhelmed with anxiety when thinking about what I need to change to improve my life.
4. Deep depression for weeks.
Then it starts over. I always get fooled by the optimism into thinking everything will change if I stay positive and then BOOM crippling depression. It feels like life is playing with me sometimes.
It helps to know that I am not the only one who understands this helpless feeling although I wish no one else had to. If anyone needs someone to talk with or just wants a new friend, I can add you on Steam or *****. Just send me a PM. Stay strong everyone!