I've struggled with anxiety in the past (it was very manageable) but it all went down hill after I had my son 7 years ago. When I brought him home and he cried non stop the first night- I had my first heart palpitation.
Years went by and during that time I was diagnosed with a vertigo disorder, with vertigo comes anxiety and anxiety makes your vertigo worse. It's a crazy and vicious cycle. I went through vestibular physical therapy which changed my life for the better and was dealing really well with anxiety and the vertigo. I would only take an alprazolam as needed and I saw a therapist for a bit.
Well just over a year ago we moved across the country. We all know moving is a major stress, my son had a horrible transition with his school...everyday he would cry when I dropped him off. He caught up and is doing really well but this new school year has brought some challenges with his health. He's missed over 10 days of school with viruses/colds/flu. Of course this affected me as well because I didn't want him getting behind again. Worrying about him all the time, dealing with the move, leaving my whole family behind...
Recently my anxiety has really taken a hold of me. My vertigo came back with a vengeance ( I am seeing a new physical therapist for this, so that's getting worked on). I started getting more and more anxiety symptoms- bladder issues, headaches, not sleeping, prickling/tingling everywhere. This just sent me over the edge. I went to the doctor and had some blood work done (check hormone levels, etc.) and everything came back normal except I was low in B12. Well I got a B12 shot (I don't think it's helped too much) She also put me on Wellbutrin and I'm almost 4 weeks into it. I'm still having major free floating anxiety though - really hoping the wellbutrin kicks in. I am seeing a therapist and reading through the Anxiety and Phobias workbook. I've downloaded some relaxation/breathing apps and I know I need to start working out regularly. It just doesn't seem like it's getting better!!!! I know it takes time but my stomach is so tight with the worry (hence the bladder problems). I definitely have hypochondria- I will totally 100% admit it! And even though my blood work came back normal I'm really tempted to seek out a neurologist for peace of mind about my prickling/tingling. I'm pretty sure I don't have MS, Lupus or Lyme's Disease --but you know how we get- worry worry worry!!!
Anyways it's nice to read about folks going through the same thing...and my hubby is so supportive as is my mom (who went through all of this herself) but it is hard for friends who've never had this to really understand you or what you're going through.
Has anyone done really well on Wellbutrin? I've tried some others (zoloft, paxil, buspar) and had really bad reactions- insomnia/ loads of jittery anxiety. My therapist said wellbutrin can sometimes take over a month before you really feel the effects. I'm just hoping I don't keep taking it and it never gets better and I have to start over with something new. I do take alpazolam as needed but it's not really working like it used- I think I've built up a tolerance.
Ugh- this anxiety thing is rough.