Just when I thought I was doing a bit better.....
Last Saturday I drove my husband to work so I could have the car for the day. Then I took my 1yr old out to lunch. Afterwards we went to hang out at a coffee house and I had some herbal tea. Then we went to the library and looked at picture books and played on the toys. I was feeling so proud if myself! Then, as we were leaving, it hit. A crushing pain in my lower teeth. It lasted over half an hour. I drove to my husbands work and sat in the parking lot. When I walked into the store to use the restroom it came back, worse this time, and included tingling in my jaw and teeth. This time I had other heart symptoms as well, including chest and arm pain. I made my husband take me to the ER, and he had to leave work early.
They did an EKG and blood tests which all came back negative. This did not make me feel better at all because even the dr said it could take 6-12 hours for it to show up in my blood and it had only been 4 1/2. I begged to be kept for follow up tests, at least one after 6 hours, but he refused because I'm only 29.
I've spent the last week in constant fear, and my jaw has been bothering me a lot. Sometimes it's an ache, other times it's a weird tightness/pressure feeling. I did have the intense pain once before back in October, but it wasn't as long lasting and I fear it was a warning since it happened while I was walking.
This morning the pain and tingling has come back, along with periods of intense sweating. I'm terrified that I won't make it through the day, and that I'm not getting appropriate testing because of all of the times I've cried wolf, so to speak. I have to work until 11:30am, and then I'm home alone with my son until 8pm. Then maybe I can go to the ER and face the embarrassment and get a blood test that will be 12 hours after my symptoms started and will convince me that it's not my heart. But it will upset my husband a lot because he's tired of seeing me go only to come back in tears just as scared. I have an OB appt on Monday and I'm hoping to convince her to give me something for anxiety and depression, as I'm to the point where I'm depressed at the thought that I'll never feel happy and carefree again. I feel like my whole life is spent just desperately trying to live while in constant fear. I'm so scared if everything.