Found this website doing a search online. Looks pretty interesting, so I thought I'd post something.
I'm a 49 year old guy whose had anxiety and panic disorder for about 15 years or so. Over the years I've learned to work around some of it, but by and large it controls my life to this day. Back when it first began (just before my dad died), I was so scared of having a panic attack that I quit jobs just to stay home. My work history for the past 15 years is terrible, due to my anxiety. I can't find work to save my life now. Back when the anxiety first started, I also became very depressed by it and stopped taking care of myself. I put on a lot of weight, stopped brushing my teeth, didn't shower much, etc. I ended up losing all my teeth from disease in 2005. To this day I haven't been able to work to buy myself dentures. This has me very depressed as well. Self-conscious to boot. I've tried just about every SSRI out there, but had horrible side effects. I tried Buspar, but all it did was make me throw up. Xanax helps with the bad cases of panic, but I don't take them often due to their addictive nature. I'm at a crossroads in my life right now, as I can't seem to move forward and improve myself. I still have anxiety 24/7. My heart skips sometimes and that freaks me out. I'm on an a-fib medication now because I'd panic myself into an arrhythmia. I'm diabetic, weigh 350 lbs and have a hard time walking or standing. It seems like there's no way out of this. My family has talked to me, but they don't see things objectively and they are very tired of my issues anyway. Seeing a professional would be nice, but no insurance. So, what do I do? I don't want to keep going on like this. This isn't living. Any suggestions would be most welcome.