Heres my big issue with anxiety and accepting anxiety. Everytime I have been to the dr about something that is bothering me, I start out about asking if this could be anxiety if it were what other signs would show. the Dr would go through all your typical anxiety symptoms like tense, worried, rushed, etc... I then say well I dont feel any of those so can I be having anxiety physical symptoms without all those. They usually pause and say "yes its possible".
My daily bouts with my physical symptoms stem from odd symptoms that usually either relate to something very major (like heart disease, stroke, cancer, etcc..) but if you can't narrow it from those, then it would have to be something odd like a rare virus (yes in my mind).
I can go about my day normally, wake up shower, feel alright, eat breakfast, take dog for a walk and then I have symptoms (for eg my neck and throat will tense- feel tight and then have a lump feeling in chest) . I take my medicine wait and nothing changes. So I just tell myself well just go relax and let it pass. This usually turns into a day of just trying my best to not do much. I never feel anxious, tense, no heart racing. Just plain feel bad, grumpy and confused. Then I will take more medicine and eventually I feel better.
Symptoms change but I have consistent ones that I feel feed to other anxiety type symptoms. Then I can be awaken in the middle of the night of a so called symptom (rapid shallow breathing) and then stay up the test of the night, maybe sleep 2 hours and then I wake and think ok when is this going to start today. Go about my business and nothing happens. Ok then Im thinking well its going to happen here in a while. Nothing happens. Im happy so I go and do more stuff I normally want to do. I mark this as a semi good night minus the lack of sleep.
The next day I can feel good, wait for it to happen and nothing. Then Im happy again and I go do the same things I did the other day. While doing something fun and totally distracted, then BAM. Im hit with these aggravating symptoms again. Which then I cant get my mind off of.
I cant wrap my mind of the scheduling on what triggers and why it happens just whenever. Medicine helps sometimes, sometimes it doesn't. Theres no consistency
But all this I never feel tense or anxious, Ive gotten to the point I just accept that its going to happen and Ill have to figure out next what to do. Typcial I know but when I tell this to a DR they give me the O_o look.
My psych that I consulted with says that I am "ping ponging" with my medicine since I would take it as needed whcih was advised by my prime doc and that I am oversensitized to any pain of discomfort. But I dunno though cause the ones that usually bother me are the ones that usually the ones that dibiltate me like the rapid breathing, the tight neck, stuck in chest discomfort, palptations. But if I have back pain, leg pain , headache which doesn't really bother me much from daily activities I'm fine.