I haven't posted on here much, just joined recently so I may not know the protocol so forgive me if I break the rules. I was wondering if anyone could offer me some support or inspiration, or wave a magic wand to help me break out of the really awful cycle of caffeine. I feel like a drug addict, and it's really getting at my self esteem. I tell myself every night before bed that I'm not going to have coffee in the morning because it seriously f's with my anxiety, and then every morning I just have to have it. I feel like I reward myself with it. I know that doesn't probably make sense, but it's like I feel so...I don't know what...affected, or stressed, that I think "I deserve this", and truth be told I love the first like 25 minutes of coffee...and then it's basically an all day anxiety fest. I get way deep inside my head and spend all day degrading myself for not being able to stick to something, and that's on top of the caffeine induced constant freak-out feeling i have throughout the day. I mean, seriously it's like drugs. and every day I say i'm going to quit, and every day I can't, and it's ruining the quality of my life. I realize it's only coffee, but it's a big deal at the moment for me.
I seriously am having trouble breaking the cycle and could use some help if anyone has a spare moment.