I've been dealing with pretty severe anxiety for 3 years now.
Strong pulse feeling in my neck
Random pains throughout my body
Suddenly feeling super sick and needing to get a drink/walk
Panic attacks(not as often anymore)
I have these feelings everyday. In these 3 years I've had maybe 10 hospital visits, 15 doctor appointments, 3 cardiologist visits, each doing test.
Everything comes back fine. Everyone tells me its anxiety.
So, why cant I believe it? Is it because the physical symptoms are so real? Or is it because I can google away and check every single thing my doctor may have missed?
Seems like everyone of my symptoms could be something very serious, and I always think "Yeah this is whats wrong, they missed this." Its not that I can't trust people, but its my life right? Its my only one, and I want to make sure I'm okay.
Everything you read about online, or whenever I ask a doctor comes along with "its rare."
"Its rare someone your age would suffer from this."
"Its unlikely this would happen."
"Maybe if you were older this would be a concern."
"Your results are fine, its rare something would be wrong."
What if I'm rare? What if I'm that 'one in a million' they always talk about.
When I'm feeling fine, or occupied with something, the symptoms fade. Which leads me to think its anxiety. However sometimes I'm just watching TV, or playing a game, or reading, and then "woah that doesn't feel right.".
How do I explain that? Why does that happen? It should be Anxiety ----> Symptoms
That doesn't make sense to me.
but my only option is to trust everyone. I have to trust the doctors know everything. I have to believe I'm not that 'rare' case. I have to ignore all of my physical problems, and remind myself its just anxiety.
Sorry, just felt like ranting somewhere. I feel so lost. I'm only 20, and ever since I turned 17 this anxiety has taken control of everything. I stopped going out, I stopped enjoying food, I stopped being able to fall asleep, ect. So many problems.