So I just registered here-
I am a 27 year old male and I have been struggling with intermittent anxiety for about half a decade now. I had my first panic attack around 20 or 21 and I was home alone and called an ambulance because I thought I was having a heart attack and dying. I felt like such an idiot afterward when I was released and fine after the tests.
I've almost had a few other panic attack here and there. Lately I have been struggling again with anxiety, but in a slightly different form. I used to always have trouble swallowing pills. Then I finally taught myself how to swallow them and was very good at it. Fast forward to about six months ago- the doctor had prescribed me some antibiotics for some sickness I had. I swallowed a few fine, but then at work the next day one got stuck in my throat...
Now I think I could still breathe, but it was kind of just stuck in my swallow tube. What a horrible few minutes. Finally after drinking some water it managed to get unstuck. After that though for about a week or two I had problems eating anything. I was hyper sensitive to anything in my throat, and swallowing any solid food. It slowly got better.
For some reason lately I have been stressed out again, and it's coming back. I am having issues with swallowing. Last night I had a full blown panic attack because I felt like I had some food stuck in my throat and it was going to choke me at any second, and even with drinking water I felt like I couldn't get whatever it was fully down. It was horrible. Eventually it subsided, but I almost went to urgent care even though I knew I was just being an idiot.
Now I have actually choked (not being able to breathe at all) on a food a couple times in my life, but obviously always ended up okay. It always became dislodged at some point.
I just want to get my anxiety under control. Now I keep being worried about when I will have to eat next, and worried about just feeling worried. It's s shitty vicious cycle and I feel like it's only getting worse.
Also I used to be (and still am to some extent) a pretty bad hypochondriac. I always assume the worst when I get little fevers here and there. And for a little while a few months ago was also worried about things like heart attacks and stuff. I witnessed a heart attack a year or two ago by an old man when I was playing basketball and it was a really crummy experience. He lived, but it was still scary.
So that's why I am here... hopefully I can get my anxiety under control and start not worrying about eating, or dying, or other stupid stuff anymore.