So it all started 10 months ago when I had my first panic attack,since then I've been to many doctors and tried therapy and all sorts of stuff,but nothing really helped.I've been on medicine for 6 months (Trittico) but it didn't help me at all,I only kinda got rid of panic attacks,but still have them sometimes.
My life's been complete hell since then,and considered self-***** sooo many times,but ironically anxiety has stopped me even from self-***** making me so scared of death.
But finally I have decided to accept my life and everything.
Now I feel like I'm not myself anymore,like I cannot pull jokes or even relax around my friends and I'm concerned that they won't like me anymore,I feel like I'm not me even with myself .(you probably know what I mean)*_*
And also it seems like I get a new ,,obsession'' every month like one month ago I was always anxiously thinking about death and existential stuff and creeping myself out.
Can someone just give me somekind of advice or something?
I''ve tried alot of stuff,but nothing seems to work.
(~`btw excuse my bad english,I'm not an native speaker~)