Update just for someone else that might be going through this later.
I'm almost completed week 5. I definitely have good times and bad. My emotions swing all over the place. I'll feel good and then bam, bad. I'm told lexapro will level this out. I'm hoping it does. I think I've seen insights say 6-12 weeks... It's admittedly frustrating reading people say I was better in 1 or 2 weeks. I do however enjoy good times right now when there was a time I wasn't seeing much of any.
This is for sure, I'll never accept xanax as a treatment for anxiety again. I know it works for some, and it worked for me before, this time around. It just created a dependence that I'll be working off of for months with klonopin. I'm down to .625 mg per day now(.25 at bed time and .375 in the am). I'll probably be here a couple of weeks. I'm ok with it. I'm going to go slow and who knows. Maybe one day the lex kicks in and I'll be able to wean off of the klonopin even faster.
The fun thing I'm feeling now is a definite increase in depression. Is this common for ssri startup? I've had a few crying spells and that's not me at all...