I have had hypochondria on and off for a few months now, since my first healthscare (HIV, diagnosed with the dreaded Google) I now look at the world in a whole new light. Each and every person I see I feel sympathy for from just thinking about them going through the same thing, or even someone worse for that matter. Health anxiety is A LOT to deal with and I really hope I can find myself again. . Anyway my second and most recent fear is lymphoma, I have recently had a sore throat (hurt to swallow just on the left side) infact a week ago today is when I first had my sore throat 4-5 days later I get over the sore throat, on the 4th day I noticed a 1 swollen gland that I think is hard on my left side of neck its only visible when I turn my head so that my right ear touches my shoulder. I have been to the doctors twice about this on the 6th day and today. First time the doctor actually said to me that I'm wasting his time and that I'm a perfectly healthy 21 year old and to basically just go, this I found distressing as not only was I in a rage from him telling me that im wasting his time and having to control it because of respect for everyone else in the doctors surgery, I was also non the wiser to why my gland has swollen up, before he even felt the gland he said I was wasting his time. So I went and got a second opinion from a walk in doctors surgery in which I met a very nice doctor who performed the correct routine to check for lymphoma signs. In which I have got no other sign that I've got it except for that one swollen gland. After she performed the check she looked at me very confused and asked "why did I think it was lymphoma" that's when I said I have been reading up on it. She then told me that she though everything was ok and doesn't suspect anything, she told me if it doesn't swell down by 2 weeks to go and see her again. Basically I need to know whether I should be worried or is this just my mind playing tricks on me, I'm constantly thinking about it, not eating due to worry, only drinking water. I have a fiance and 3 beautiful children and I worry that I'm taking my frustration out on them sometimes, although I really don't mean too. I love my family and want to put this anxiety behind me. ALOT easier said than done, believe me.
Thanks in advance for taking the time to read