I took another step in my recovery today, and I feel great!
Last night my girlfriend asked me if I would be up to taking her mom to go get some blood-work done. My entire anxiety issues started when I originally took her mom to the doctors office, so needless to say I was very upset about the thought of having to do it again.
Fear started running through my head, what will happen to me if I do this? Will I revert back to how I was 6 months ago? Will I pass out on the drive over the hospital and risk killing us? Will I pass out in the waiting lounge for her to go get blood drawn?
But then something happened as my fears ran through my mind; I realized that to beat my fear I must face my fear. Just the realization of that gave me the courage to say yes.
I was nervous this morning when it was time to go down there, but I soldiered on. Not surprisingly, everything went fine. I had a little anxiety creep up on me in the waiting lounge, mainly when I started over-thinking about the blood draw stations, but once I was able to focus on something else, I was fine.
I know that I have more steps to go, but I just wanted to share my success today with everyone.