This is my first time posting on anything like this but I am at my witts end.
I have been with my fiance now for about 4 years. We had a bumpy start but we have been doing amazing and I couldn't imagine anyone more perfect for me then him.
I had had some doubts before but was always able to push them out. I truly can not imagine myself with anyone else. He is my rock and my best friend.
I am on Lexapro, for about a year now, and found it very helpful.
We just went on a trip to Punta Cana and as soon as I arrived, I started to panic.
The day before I had mentioned to my mom I was nervous about getting married...we are also in contract on a house. But I was simply nervous...maybe slightly doubtful but I was able to push the thoughts out.
It was the first trip out of the country I had ever gone on without my parents (I am 26 yrs old)..and I also just did not like the place. I began sweating, feeling nauseous, worrying about everything but most of all, doubting my relationship with my fiance.
I should also mention I was sick for half our trip...and was throwing up after taking my medication every night. I went about 3 or 4 days in a row without my medication.
Now, we have been back since Friday, it is now Wednesday, I was able to keep my medication down for the past 3 days...I know it takes some time to sink into your system but I feel so not myself and also have continued to doubt everything with my fiance...but everytime I get home from work..alll I want to do is hug him and cry.
Does anyone else ever have these doubts? Please tell me I should ignore them and they aren't true. It upsets me more to think they could be true! I know I love him..and I feel that my lapse in medication as thrown me into a tailspin but I can't be sure anymore because I feel I am totally loosing it. PLEASE HELP!!! =(