i have been having this issue due to having very little contact with females around my age due to being placed in special ed after being misdiagnosed with autism (actually depression). i dropped out recently to do further education courses. i can't even look at females without a feeling of anxiety and worry, even animated females (i am a bit geeky). i have only spoken to two females around my age in the past 7 years, none of which i was able to develop a connection/friendship with. the schools i went to had very few females, and the ones there were mentally handicapped and not fun to be around at all. most of the people i meet are shallow and hateful, not to mention mentally handicapped. i am waiting for a kind female to enter my life that will actually allow my mind to be calm and focused yet again, rather than the negative memories of autistic people yelling insults at my face for no real reason.