Need some advice be honest

[vanderbaek]

Im 18 and i live in england

I quit school last year and finally went to college i used to be quite normal when i was around 13 i was normal but i had ADD and dyslexia which i used to get in allot of trouble at school, i used to do bad in English writing which you can tell my grammar sucks 0104 so please forgive me so anyway i was quite loud and cheeky shall we say but after being in i mean allot of trouble through the years.
i had started to become worse being more quiet and ending up bunking off most of the year which is a term for "skipping school" anyway i was in trouble allot because i have a short temper and a bad attitude which is why i had no friends and i was kept out of classes to be put in a room on my own, i mean i barely did anything i used to swear its not like i attacked a teacher or stabbed someone but anyway year later i went to college on a computer course since i am very good with website templates and CC++ but because i had done so bad and left school so early i had to go into the worst section and it was full of idiots who had no intention of working also the work we were set was very low standard like "How do you make a border in Word?"
so i ended up not going and not really talking to people in my classes because they were annoying and most of them were chavs "Like ghetto boys in America" so now i am claiming money every week doing nothing with my life but sit indoors and play video games by myself.

Here's a list of things i have never done and i am 18

1)Gone to a club
2)Gone out with friends to a party
3)Gotten drunk
4)Met new people
5)Been out with a girl in like 4 years


This may sound weird but i don't find myself unattractive i m not fat or skinny and i get compliments by people all the time i also dress well too but i just dont have the nerve to go outside on my own or meet new people, the only way i see it is to go back to college and find some friends which is what i plan to do anyway so i can finish my next course.
My family have helped me get over it abit i went to a festival with my family and talked to a few people and now i can even walk into shops talk to the shop assistants its amazing what effort does but i still cant face going out and getting friends.


p.s

Sorry if this was long and badly written but i hope someone can give me some replies thanks :)

[PamT]

I think you are doing great.

It takes time, and it takes work...  You just continue making steps towards going out, or meeting people, and eventually you will get there.

Good luck with your progress!! :)

Pam

[Rach]

Yeah i think your doing really well an all.
 All i really want to do all day is sit in bed, with my curtains closed watching dvds over and over again. I find it really hard just to get up in the morning and go to school and i alot of the time i dont end up going in. Its been really hard this year already and we only started a couple of weeks ago. I didnt go in for ages and all ive had since i forced myself to go back is people constantly asking why i was off and moaning about how ive left them with noone to talk to in lessons, rumours about why i was off and teachers complaining that im never going to catch up and pass my GCSE'S ( young ino )
I wish i could just leave and not go back but i do want to do well and ino it'l get worse the longer i leave it.
The only advice i could give is just to try and go back to college even though you might not want to, easier said than done though. I constantly said to myself ill go back tomorrow, ill go back tomorrow but when the time actually comes i cant get out the front door without breaking down or having a panic attack. But the sooner you go back the easier it will be to be honest.
good luck x