Well, that's the frustrating part of it all . . .for every 3 steps forward, there are sometimes 2 steps back . . . I also wanted to just keep going forward and I found it very difficult and depressing when I hit a speedbump . . . sometimes, I just gave into the frustration and then I would realize that I may as well try again because I would rather progress at least 1 step than no steps . . .I am not on meds at this point so I cannot really know about the side effects . . . There were episodes when the interval between good times was very very short but then those intervals began getting longer . . . it is not a straight process, unfortunately . . . . anxiety is a creepy health issue . . . it's there, it's not there, it's back again . . . I was fortunate in that I found great potential in mindfulness . . . and sometimes I still have bumps in the road . . . .but I am more able to manage them . . . .I don't want to lie to you because this is my experience and it is not necessarily yours or anyone else's but I still have episodes . . . while they are not as intense or as long in time, they still come . . .but for all those little steps forward, I am in a much better position to manage them . . .
I can tell you are strong in character because our anxiety reflects many of our issues . . .our triggers, our fears, etc. but anxiety can also reflect our strengths . . .your anxiety is strong which means it is feeding off your strength . . .you need guidance to take that strength, distract it from anxiety, and build a recovery path . . . I still think you need help and not only meds but a good counselor who understands GAD and can help you to unravel your triggers and deal with them . . . and you need support . . . and hopefully you will be comfortable coming here . . .we will do what we can for you because we know some of the stuff that you are going through but we also know that when we are at our lowest, we seemed to discover an inner strength that reaches out and starts the journey back . . . not easy, but it can be done . . . please keep in touch . . . we are a very welcoming community and we know how much strength that it takes to post our concerns and ask for help . . . .take care, kc