Hi. I'm new here. I have general anxiety disorder/depression, and my therapist suggested I join an online community where I could get to interact with others who have similar problems. I feel crippled by my anxiety and can't really relate to anybody in real life. I used to think I was the only one with this problem, but now I see that there are others. It's hard for me to lead a normal life. Apart from my family, I don't have any friends and it's hard for me to keep a job (I purposely didn't go to my job interview today).
It used to be a lot worse. I couldn't leave my house, and I still can't unless it's going to see the therapist and psychiatrist, putting in/picking up my prescriptions, or grocery shopping. Other than that, I stay inside. I think I have agoraphobia, but I was never diagnosed. I figure I have no place to be, no one to see, so why go out? It's depressing. I don't really like being around people but a friend or two wouldn't hurt. I feel judged and scrutinized all the time, I have racing thoughts, and can never seem to relax in social situations--I'm even anxious and self-conscious around family members! Everywhere I go people ask me, "How come you're so quiet" "Smile". I hate that. Can anyone relate?