"The day you realize you'll probably never be fine..."
I hear ya'....been there...almost all of us have (many are there right now, believing anxiety will continue to dominate us forever). Through a a hyper mind, this can be what the future looks like. Doesn't have to be this way, as far as anxiety dominating us. Will anxiey likely be some part of our lives....likely yes. But, we can learn how to live very well alongside our mental health challenges.
"Doc put me on Prozac this time 20mg, and 3 weeks ago I upped it to 30mg. I am exercising 3 times a week, going to swimming 3 times a week, playing basketball once a week. Taking meds, going to therapy, doing everything I can to stop this thing, and just when I think I am fine, my girlfriend has late period and I freak out again."
Definitely keep on keepin' on with this stuff. Exercise is vital for HA peeps. Helps keep our minds in check. Helps with releasing 'feel good' endorphins. Helps us understand our bods are not failing us. Therpay is a wonderful tool. But, we MUST use self-help outside of the therapist's office. There are many techniques, actions, habits and mindsets that we can try to embrace that can help minimize anxiety / panic.
Ultimately, IMHO, you CAN control anxiety's dominance. This is what happens when we find our way to a lasting, viable healing path. Anxiety doesn not have to be the major definer of our overall well-being. Do we have to accept that it just might be a 'minor' player in our lives? Prob so. No biggie really. Of course, keeping our anxiety 'in the background' mostly takes time and patience and some levels of understanding. It takes major acceptance and the embracing of useful actions and habits. It also takes moving away from counterproductive measures that we tend to fall back into when struggling.....like too many Med Doc visits, too many med tests, googling, self-checking, self-diagnosing.
When struggling, we often believe we are stuck and we feel we have tried everything already. Most of the time, we simply have not tried everything. And / or, we just haven't given particular techniques and actions the proper time and practice needed. It certainly takes time, effort and patience (and ACCEPTANCE) before we can have better lasting peace. But, many of these actions CAN really have a positive affect on how we feel pretty darn quickly.
Perhaps, you can list (write them down) ALL the things you know that have been shown to maybe help with anxiety / panic. Everything is up for discussion. Nothing should be discounted. Writing things down helps, as anxious peeps tend to loose a train of thought pretty quickly when stressed or upset. An important part of a healing path is having a bonafide gameplan. And this sure doesn't have to be as hard or laborious as an amped up mind might think:)
Anxiety does NOT have to dominate you. Setbacks happen, also. All we do is get up, dust ourselves off and keep on truckin' with the same stuff that lead us to some good solace before. It gets better and better as we learn to accept and continue to do the right things (and NOT do the wrong things:)
Peace and Feel Well:)