I have had HA for more years than I can count. I used to be a frequent doctor goer. But over the years, my fears have made it hard for me to seek medical advice. I still go for colds that linger and such, but for "real" issues, I am too afraid. My biggest fear is of medical procedures! I am terrified of all of them. I find them to be torturous and scary. Am I alone on this? I read these boards and see others talk about all of these horrible procedures they have endured only to find out nothing was wrong, so why go through them?
I have denied so many procedures...anything with contrast freaks me out! I am terrified of urologists, GI doc's, ENT's ect. Pretty much any doctor that would ask for a medical procedure that sounds like torture.
My latest anxiety (and yes, one always replaces the last sadly) is I have had a painless lump for over 6 months now, that my GYN says is a small hemorrhoid. But I am so aware of it, and it has caused me to constantly "clench" down there, which subsequently has caused a constant ache in my tailbone region. Which of course means it is cancer. But I am far to afraid to go to the GI doctor to be reassured.
I need help!! My brain has gone into overload, I just know I am creating more and more symptoms over this.
There has to be help for this. Why can't this stupid lump just go away already! And if it finally does, then what...I just know I will focus too much on something new. Something that will trigger more fear and I will imagine all of these horrible medical testings that they will want to do