Hi K:) Welcome to The AZ. I'm sure you'll find some compassion, here, and some insight as to how you might be able to better help yourself seek out some lasting peace.
I agree with tinam7 about Sunlover's reply, too:)
Let me jump right to the meat of my reply. Medical testing for reassurance ("peace of mind") is something that a lot of medical Docs (non-psychiatric) will offer up. It is also something that provides fleeting, at best, relief to an amped up HA person. Our Docs see a patient obviously anxious (despite our best attempt to keep our HA 'secret', maybe:) and most Docs want to help - this is their business and livelihood - helping people feel better through medicine. Trouble is that, overwhelmingly (and I mean incredibly overwhelmingly) we don't need medical intervention for our current struggles. History and experience shows us that HA peeps, as a collective group, are just as healthy as non-HA folk. Our lifespan expectancy certainly has to mirror the general population's. With HA, each of us feel our case is the one, though, that will buck all the odds and we will fall victim to a sinister disease / illness despite our hyper-vigilance over our health. The fear and the pervasive, anxious drive to 'protect' ourselves can lead us into some nasty lifeflow interruptions, for sure. But, this 'protection' is pretty much a myth. Most anything above going to the Doc for our yearly check-ups / physicals is feeding our HA. Most anything above our age appropriate, gender specific and family history related screenings feeds our HA. Of course, there are times when we need to see a Doc for illness, perhaps. But, to me, HA peeps really have to set the bar of running off to the Doc much HIGHER than most people, as we have HA / ADs and THESE things create just as much or even MORE potential lifeflow interruptions than a medical issue. And, as has been shown, when HA peeps actually do have an actual medical matter that needs attention (serious or regular), we go about handling it pretty darn well. Sure, we are freaked a bit (so would be everyone), but we have been shown to be very good patients...following directions and maintaining a positive will to get better:) Sounds so friggin' risky to an HA mind....."move away from medical intervention...what are you crazy!". "I just know I have a failing body somewhere / somehow...I just know it!". "How can I move away from medical intervention? " Maybe your case wasn't as bad as mine...maybe you weren't so freakin' sure you time was gonna come too soon...but I feel it in my bones and nerves and skin and muscles and body...I just know it!" That was me, as well...many years ago.
We open up a whole can of worms when we put ourselves in front of a med Doc, too often. Too much testing gets performed, ultimately. 'Things' are found that are just a bit off that would normally have no bearing on our overall health outlook, but because we are HA peeps we totally freak. And, the cycles continue....as we now have to know what in the hell is that tiny cyst on my liver that was picked up by that CT scan, that we really didn't need. Is it cancer? Will it become cancer? I'm SURE it will become cancer! Etc. Tons of peeps have cysts.....almost all those people never see them or even know about them. This is just ONE type of 'bleed over' that can occur from unneeded med intervention. I cannot tell you how many times I have this 'bleed over' effect create so much future havoc, anxiety AND additional medical testing!
I am a big fan of modern medicine, trust me. Medicine saves lives. But, what almost all of us here on The AZ need to 'save' is our ability to be the major definer of our overall well-being. We feel lost when floundering with anxiety. We have serious doubt. We feel we have little chance of a viable LASTING healing path, a lot of the time. We sure can learn how to live well, though, alongside our mental health challenges...certainly. Anxiety does not have to define us. It's part of us....but it does not have to define us:)
I try to stay away from actually telling people (my opinion) to NOT have this or that test. First, I'm not a Doc. Second, I'm not living your life. But, what I do know with pretty assured confidence is that we, eventually, have to move away from seeking out medical intervention for what is majorly a mental health issues. There is little chance for a lasting healing path if we are racing off to the Doc often, or googling incessantly, or self-checking vitals all the time. Sure we "get by"....most of us...by living this way. I sure lived this way for a good while (many years). It leads us in a looping circle, though....it keeps us in fear cycles. At some point we have to ACCEPT our major challenge is in our minds, our thinking patterns, our actions and habits in order for us to live where anxiety is calling very few of the shots. This can be done:)
Peace and Feel Well:)