This is my first time every being on one of these kinds of Message Boards. I have been diagnosed with many kinds of Anxiety disorders since a recent Panic Attack I had a couple of weeks ago. I have since been seeking therapy and medication for the subject. My anxiety has been diagnosed as severe and debilitating (not wanting to leave the couch, not eating at all, unable to work, etc. A depression has come a long with it as well. Sorry If I am doing an odd job of explaining the situation, but I have some Lorazepam and Fluoxentine in me right now, hahaha.
Yet, one part is really, really freaking me out. I love my wife. I love her more than anything in the world. She has been incredibly supportive of this whole thing and our 8 years together have been the happiest 8 years of my life.
But since the Panic attack, she has been a source of anxiety to me for no reason (I'm assuming, since she was there during my panic attack, I'm associating anxiety with her now). She has done everything possible to be there for me and has been an incredible wife throughout all of this. But thoughts and such of separating and divorce have been going through my head ever since. Which makes no sense given how much I love her and want to spend the rest of my life with her. At night when we are settled down, and all of my nerves are calm, we cuddle to a movie and it's wonderful. But the ideas of divorce hit my brain and terrifying me.
Is it just my body going into "fight or flight" mode with my wife? Has anyone here had something similar happen with their wife or husband during an anxiety episode? What happened with your relationships after such an episode?
The same thing has happened with our house. There has been so many anxiety episodes that that when I pull into the driveway, it feels like I'm pulling into the Amityville house, hahaha.
So any stories and answers or questions anyone would like to share?