I am so tired of this roller coaster and I'm just done. Something has to be wrong and sometimes I wish it would just be over. I've had anxiety for as long as I can remember but these last 2 1/2 years have been horrible. I'm 33 and I feel 63 most days. I have palpitations, pain in ribs and chest, pain in shoulders and neck, various short lived joint pain, and now every night my fingers swell slightly. Even during the day the joints feel swollen. I am completely freaking out. I figure it has to be heart or kidney failure. I've had a work up by the cardio as little as 6 months ago. They've done echo's, ekgs, monitors, stress tests and the last was a nuclear stress test. All normal. Last blood work was normal. I keep thinking of nonfatal things like fibromyalgia or arthritis which run in my family. But I always go back to heart and kidneys
I'm even refusing to go to new York next week with my husband because I'm convinced I'm dying. I just want to live again and be happy with my husband and kids. Its not fair to me or them. I hate this!