Yeah, it is hard... I am on Prozac, but I'm not quite sure it's working. I have another psychiatrist appointment this week, so hopefully I can get this sorted out. I just wish these symptoms would go away
Hi e:) I'm glad you're getting some professional help. Most of us need it (or have needed it) at one point or another in our 'anxiety journey'. From there, it really will be our own self-help that keeps us moving down our healing path longer-term. The things we learn in counseling / therapy must be practiced and embraced by us. We should add our own actions, habits and mindsets into the mix, as well. We must, ultimately, take control over our healing path. No rush, though....don't get too far ahead of ourselves in seeking out some lasting peace. We think, "Damn, I just wanna be ME again...I wanna get better NOW...I HAVE TO get better NOW!" Of course, patience is not really a best buddy for us anxiety peeps....that is for sure:) A healing path is a process...it takes some time to learn what's even going on in our bodies and minds due to our anxiety issues. When struggling us HA folk tend to discount the power of the mind to exacerbate physical manifestations and, even, create them, as well. I am not amazed by anxiety anymore. I understand there is little outside the boundaries of where hyper-anxiety can lead our minds and where it can take our bodies. And, from there, a hyper-amped up brain and nervous system and body systems need time to 'come down' from their manic state, so to speak. Even when we are feeling pretty good one day, we will all of a sudden realize a niggling pain and ache or have an event happen (a skipped heart beat - a flash of light - a buzz zap in the brain, etc) and we are off to the races again wondering what bad is going in our bods. This 'up and down' of being hyper that we go through on pretty much a daily basis (or hourly basis even) when we are struggling continues to build and build until we reach a point where we really feel we just can't take it anymore...we feel there will never be a period in our lives where we aren't heavily affected by anxiety / health anxiety.
I call HA the 'doubting disease' sometimes. We tend to doubt many things, when struggling. We doubt Docs and medical testing. We doubt that our case is just a 'normal anxiety disorder case' and we will be THE ONE who actually does have that awful disease / illness. We doubt our future possibilities of living well as we see ourselves ALWAYS struggling with anxiety. We doubt our ability to know if what we are doing is best for our anxiety treatment. We doubt that we will ever be the major definer of our overall
well-being and that anxiety will always call a majority of the shots. Doubt is pervasive. Doubt is powerful. And, this doubt will drive us into fear cycles where we end up repeating bad habits and counterproductive actions.
A very counterproductive action is seeking out repeat testing and repeat med intervention when we have been told by Docs (usually many) that there is nothing physiologically sinister that is the major root cause of our struggles (symptoms - pain -worry).
What's going on in your psych visits, if you don't mind sharing?
What type of self-help do you do....or aware of?
Do you have family support?
What meds are you on? Have taken?
Sorry to fire off so many questions:) Many peeps here can offer up some pretty darn good advice. You've gotten a lot already:)
Peace and Feel Well:)