Hello everyone! I'm so glad I found this forum! I go to the doc on Tuesday to see what/if something is wrong.
So a little bit about what I'm going through. I have awful intrusive thought like: what if I have a illness, what's if I die,what happens when you die? Heaven, hell or do you just not exist!whats going to happen to my family, how will my kids take it! What will there future be like without me. The thing is I love life and want to get back to that. I know these a normal thoughts but I can't shake them. I had heart palpitations and it scared the living daylights out of me. To the point I'm not eating or going #2 and I have dry mouth. So then I start thinking ok something is wrong that's why I'm not doing these things! I have a constant feel of unease and that keeps my mind going. It's like racing thoughts. I just want my mind to go back to how I was! And these symptoms came out of no where. I just turned 30 years old and feel I have a lot left. My smoking has increased a lot also! I was even wondering if I'm developing skitzophrenia sorry for my spelling. My mother in law suffers sever depression, anxiety and panic attacks. And it scares me that one day I'll wake up and be like that. Sorry for my rant! So what do you guys think? My mother Inlaw thinks Buspar could help along with therapy. I know I can beat this and move on. I also have a what I think is a derealization or depersonalization. This sucks and is terrifying!