Hello, I'm new to the forum. This is actually the first time I've joined any forum. I haven't been able to find an appropriate psychologist to help me cope with my health anxiety, so I thought joining a group could be insightful and helpful.
My anxiety issues started when I was very young, probably early elementary school. I was always afraid of being poisoned or dying or having one of my parents pass away. I carried dread for a long time, but it would ebb and flow. I was pretty alright for much of middle school and early high school, but entered a major depression (seemingly unrelated to health anxiety) when I was 17, and started a medication regimen (unsure of what I took at that point, but I remember having to try a few different things). This extended through college, but I stopped taking medication around the time I was 23. Though I had minor "flare ups" of health anxiety (usually related to brain tumor fears, or other neurological conditions), I was ok to handle them without counseling or medication. This winter, anxiety returned full forced when I had a dizzy spell and thought of losing everything I was so happy about in my life. I was sure I would pass out and die in my living room. A month later, I was unable to concentrate when people were talking to me, and always felt like my head was in a cloud. I went to see a doctor who couldn't find anything wrong with me, other than a minor infection indicated by a high white blood cell count. I took that and ran, sure I had leukemia. I didn't, of course. She prescribed me an antianxiety medication, but my arms and legs became so tired and are even tired as I type this - especially my right arm which always feels like I've been working out.
So, that's my story to this date. Trying to get out of the dark hole and move on with my otherwise amazing life. I'm glad to be here to help others and to hopefully get some help myself.