This is a pretty common worry for HA peeps. We fear we are dying so we might keep going to the Doc until we get testing and then we can hyper-worry about the 'damage' this testing has done (mainly CTs and x-rays).
You can't undo a CT, anyway.....but having a CT isn't going to 'mess you up', at all. Or even having several, as many here on The AZ have done. But, what you can do is not have anymore unless it is absolutely
medically necessary and NOT given to you for "peace of mind". I know this can be tough as HA peeps truly feel their med testing IS necessary, at the time, as we feel there is something bad going on in our bods. And, as has it has been proven time and time again, medical testing does not provide an amped up HA person any type of lasting
peace....the relief is fleeting, at best.
my husband losing motivation for life because of me I'm so worried for us, kids.
HA isn't ALL about our health. It can bleed over into almost any facet of our lives and create serious difficulty. It can be pervasive its overall affect on our quality of life. That said, we can get help and help ourselves, definitely. We do not have feel as though anxiety will be the major determining factor for our happiness in the future. We do feel this way often, when struggling, but we can learn how to live and believe otherwise:)
What's going on in your anxiety help? Self help?
Peace and Feel Well:)